Let Me DesiGn yOu

The year go on..
The memories never fade..
This is the compilation of 2011..
Me like it me love it..
All about me,people that i adore and my favorite things..
Nothing more and nothing less..
Just ordinary.

Written and compiled by
-secret-

goodbye 2011
hello 2012..
i got no clue things that might and will happen...
like always and always my fingers hesitate what to type on this keyboard..
my mind to my heart and to my fingers and then nothing much came out...
im seeking for the mood..
as im seeking for the answer...
tough i gotta admit.
hard i gotta admit.
but somehow happiness grows in a black hole im also gotta admit.
the unforgettable memories.
the unforgettable people.
the unforgettable feelings.
i grew stronger.
i became more mature.
i differentiate things.
i learn to see from hidden angles.
i drew perspectives of ma life.
the skills somehow need to develop.
the characters i need to eliminate.
the storyline i need to adjust.
the ending that i never be sure.
wondering what i will be.
who will stay with me.
who gonna stand right beside me.
who gotta lend me the smile and then i can give the tears.
yes im smiling and yes im frowning.
and sometimes im crying.
and walking...and walking..and keep on walking..
tomorrow i will see you again...

to be continue~~

Ten decisions shape your life,
you'll be aware of 5 about,
7 ways to go through school,
either you're noticed or left out,
7 ways to get ahead,
7 reasons to drop round,
when i said ' I can see me in your eyes',
you said 'I can see you in my bed',
that's not just friendship that's romance too,
you like music we can dance to,

Sit me down,
Shut me up,
i'll calm down,
and i'll get along with you,

There is a time when we all fail,
some people take it pretty well,
some take it all out on themselves,
some they just take it out on friends,
oh everybody plays the game,
and if you don't you're called insane,

Don't don't don't don't it's not safe no more,
i've got to see you one more time,
soon you were born,
in 1984,

Sit me down,
shut me up,
i'll calm down,
and i'll get along with you,

Everybody was well dressed,
and everybody was a mess,
6 things without fail you must do,
so that your woman loves just you,
oh all the girls played mental games,
and all the guys were dressed the same,

Why not try it all,
if you only remember it once,
oooh ooooooh,

Sit me down,
shut me up,
i'll calm down,
and i'll get along with you,

(okay one more time)

one of my favorite moment.
during a visit to Sri Lanka.
i wish i could return here someday.
for some reasons most of the people around me never understand.
which is for me it is a matter what i feel inside.
that engraved such a good memory.
and i like to described it as 'spiritual architecture'.

by
-secret-

Well you know I hardly speak.
When I do it's just for you.
I haven't said a word in weeks
'Cause they've been keeping me from you.

There's a way where there's a will.
You know I got no need for stairs.
Step out on the window sill,
Fall with me into the air.

So, here we go.
Hold on tight and don't let go.
I won't ever let you fall.
I love the night.
Flying o'er these city lights.
But I love you most of all.

Well there's something you should know.
Girl (boy) you should have died that day.
You fell reaching for the rose
Baby I was there to save you.

minor alteration by:
secret (18/9/2011) 11.47 pm

again..
n again...
when will this be over?
someday...
promised day...
always guess it wrong...
1 year...2 years...3 years...or 10 more years?
when n why?
i got no clue.
do u truly understand it?
i dont think so coz u never feel it.
so get lost from me.
the unwanted things that only ruined my life.
and thank you AGAIN.

a quote from me to begin the short post...

"sometimes i feel the guilt in me.when something good come to me.things have to be sacrificed.and some in a bitter way for someone else"

glad someday that I've been waiting for finally come...
a reason to be happy.yes i am...
i am a Hustle Rose..
that goes from limb to limb..
to reach for sunlight..
it aint easy.Never easy for me..
"im used to it" i mean being alone..
but sumhow i need it too...not being alone..

the thorns from the Hustle Rose is harmful for the others..
but for sumone its a way of me staying in...n stay longer like i always hope...
im tangled around it...not to make u suffocated...
but to learn u..understand u...
the nature of u...
just wanna be good to u...
so u'll be good to me.
no! i dun wanna be just good.i wanna be better..
better thn others so in ur eyes im different thn others..
but still...
i dunno wat u see in me..
and i dun want u losing ur good frens becoz of me...
i can witness it from here..
remember that i told ya tht im a good listener and observer..
i observed without u noticed it then i think it deeply...
i listened to it closely and i can tell the different tha good n bad melody...
i've been thru a lot and i know..
this post not supposed to be sad..
it should be cherished with happiness im feeling now.
but sumhow the guilt kill it softly tonite.
the guilt for them tht i called "the waiting'' been distance away from u.
becoz of me.
and i dunno why i should apologizing...
but still, by saying this make me feel better a bit..
im sorry...to whom may concern.

written in a middle of the nite by
secret.
(2.34 am and i happy to accompany D)