Monday, May 30, 2011
Abandoned is the word..
i leave this journal abandoned...
something abandoning me...
abandoned revolve around n around...
i hear this music lately...
not a melody of sadness...
or bitter...
perhaps a combination of all...
with something beautiful and lead me to shut my eyes and feel the invisible..
then it can make me smile..
but for some they call it Insanity..
but im not insane...
im being me.
if i shud tell the whole world what the recent war and who's win..
it will be a topic of blast!
the most painful war I've created for crossing the borderline of my feelings...
it takes quite sometimes to heal...
if i tell the whole world what's happening...
it will be either noticed,forgotten or maybe not even bother..
so i choose a secret as key, hide it somewhere and there so nobody can enter my world..
except by invitation...
the secret list i keep writing on, cancelled or sometimes erased.
who's will be the guest of honor?
i dunno.
so much things happening these last few days...
i don't quite sure why god made it happened...
the more im trying to seek the answer to more twisted it be...
so i just leave it there...abandoned..
it was like a slow motion construction that waited for budget to keep on going...
no budget means nothing...
is it if im not supplying any budgets then things will be over and forgotten?
so there it became abandoned man made structure?ugly!
im an architect in progress...
im always lead but im obeying god..
tht make me a normal human being..
then i let this phrase out:
''let see if u will remember or either u will simply forget when u already got what u want?i don't lose anything.it was u losing me.think again"
and again it is related to abandoned...
coz never leave me abandoned for too long...
coz each days something missing and in the end u got nothing...
nvm then..
i will stand here on my feet, watch and wait what gonna happen next.
for i am a good listener and watcher...
and a hard believer...
to own my trust is not tht easy...
so appreciate when i give one...
now im already reached the end of the sentence...
and again i leave this dusty journal abandoned until i figure out what to let out.
written by
secret (30/5/11)
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